lets talk about this little girl for a sec....

so other than my last post revealing the gender of our baby girl, i haven't written ANYTHING about her on this here blog. or anywhere else for that matter. when i was pregnant with grant, i think i had written probably 5-6 blog posts by now....and had posted a handful of belly pics.....ahhh the difference between first children and.....all the other ones. ;)

but today i wanted to document how i/we found out we were pregnant, and how my pregnancy has been thus far!!

so there i was....priest lake, idaho. my favorite vacation spot...enjoying the sun and the fresh water and the beach and the pines and the overall goodness that is priest lake. norman is currently going to school full time and year round, so unfortunately he couldn't make it to priest lake with us this year. SUCH a bummer and i'll probably NEVER go without him again. it just wasn't the same. so anyway...there i was...enjoying this fabulous vacation....until july 3rd.....

up to july 3rd i was feeling great....a tad emotional at times...in fact there may or may not have been a phone call to norman one night in tears....but i blamed it on my period that was sure to arrive any minute according to my "right-on-time-never-am-late" cycle.

so a few days pass....still no period. still no SIGN of a period....now normally...if i'm even a MINUTE late, i am stressing and needing to take a pregnancy test. (which really never happens because i'm always right on schedule). however, norm and i had been careful!! we were sure i wasn't pregnant. like...i was 100% sure there was NO POSSIBLE WAY i was pregnant. so a few more days passed....and yeah, even though i am NEVER late..i still was 100% sure i wasn't pregnant. i thought maybe mother nature was cutting me a break for single-mom-ing it while camping and she wasn't gonna have me start til i got home!! how nice of her....

now, just for information sake...norman and i weren't planning on "trying" until january of 2016. norman had wanted to start trying for a long time now and our original plan was to start trying in august-september.... but i had just finished nursing grant in april-may ish and i JUST felt like i got my body back completely to myself. so i asked him if he was cool holding off until january. then he would graduate in april, we would move to wherever he got a job, be settled and THEN have the next baby. it seemed like the perfect plan! he said it was up to me and he was on board with whenever i felt like we needed to have another one since i would be the one doing the "heavy lifting", if you will. so i prayed. and i let heavenly father know what i was thinking and told Him that if that wasn't a good plan, and we needed to have one sooner, to let me know, but if not...that's what we were going to do...wait until january. six months isn't that big of a difference right?? He wasn't gonna care if we had one in april-ish opposed to september ish.....right??? WRONG.

so day 7 rolls around post when i was supposed to start my period...no period. and never in my LIFE have i been 7 days late. was i worried??? no...still not worried. i was sure we weren't pregnant. i talked to my mom and sister about it and laughed and ALL of them were like ...you gotta find a test...you're totally pregnant. i still denied it. but norman and i thought we should probably rule it out, so i called around a couple nearby stores that were by our campground and asked if they had pregnancy tests. only one did. (that was an awkward phone call....). so my cousin and i head to get it...on my way back i'm talking to norman and he says "so how do you want me help you and react if this is postitive??" and i start laughing and said..."norman...i'll be fine if it's positive." (in my mind thinking...because there's no way it is) and he says "no, you won't." haha so we joke about it and i tell him i would call him back when i was taking the test.

i get back to camp and make the journey to the nasty campground bathroom with my mom, my sisters, and one of my cousins. kelsey, my sister, was on the phone with my husband outside the bathroom because you don't get service inside...so i do my business...start walking outside with the test in hand....the first line has already shown up by now....and all the sudden the FAINTEST of pink lines show up beside it. and i still don't believe it. i show my family and everyone says "OH MY GOSH YOU'RE TOTALLY PREGNANT" and i'm still sitting there like no i'm not....that's not even dark enough to be considered a line! and of course they all pull out the instructions that more or less read "if there is any line there at ALL, you are pregnant". So i denied it a couple more times...norman is on the phone wondering what's going on....and then it hits me....i'm pregnant. and i start to cry. norman is on the phone still and says "morgan, what does it say?" and i can't speak...cause of the whole crying thing....and he goes "oh...ok!" he then proceeded to comfort me and say how it was going to be alright, etc, etc. 

i was in shock. i seriously could NOT believe it. i wasn't ready. wasn't ready to be sick again. wasn't ready to give up the time with just grant and i. wasn't ready to share my body again. just...wasn't ready. i mean i was leaving on a 3-4 week road trip accross the U.S. in less than a month! the timing was just not ideal. so i cried...a lot. 

and i know it sounds silly and maybe selfish because there are so many people that want to get pregnant and can't, or have to try for months or even years to get a baby, and i accidentally get pregnant. but when you aren't mentally and emotionally prepared for it and all the sudden one minute you think you aren't pregnant and won't be for at least another 6 months and then the next you are...it kind of throws you. 

BUT....i know it was supposed to happen. obviously. because we still don't know how it did. hah. and once i got passed the sickness and started feeling those kicks, and saw the ultrasound...you remember how great it is....even if the timing wasn't "ideal." 

and we knew from the beginning it was going to be a girl. we/i wanted another boy SO bad...finance wise....and the fact that we have an abundance of girls in our family...another boy wouldn't have been terrible....but we knew that this one was going to be a girl... and she is!!! and although we now have to buy a bunch of new clothes and try to come up with even ONE girl name we both even remotely like (suggestions PLEASE...), we are both pleased to have another little addition to our family... in girl form!! :) 

so anyway...i think that's long and detailed enough for one post... so i'll make this next part short...

this pregnancy has been SUPER similar to grants, if not a little easier (so i was secretly hoping maybe it WAS a boy). i threw up a lot more with grant, but the nausea has been the same...and lasted the same amount of time. i have teenage acne again like i did with grant...thanks for that, kids.... i crave different things this time. i didn't like ANY sweets with grant and i couldn't have like ANY dairy in abundance, and this one i always want a treat after my meals and i can eat dairy without there being a huge problem. 

other than that...nothing really of note. i thought i was going to get real big real fast with this one cause i was starting to show a lot earlier, i thought. but it's stalled to a pretty comparable pace to when i was pregnant with grant. 

i have been a lot more active with this one. i have still been playing volleyball and it's been nice to feel fit, still...even if i feel sooooo much slower. and pregnant brain is in full force, again. it's a real thing, guys. 

so there you have it! congratulations if you made it through the whole post!! again, suggestions for girl names will be welcomed with open arms (can't say i'll like any of them, but i need some options...) and you girl mamas out there....give me the lowdown on where to buy the best girl clothes that aren't so.....girly. if you know what i mean. 

THANKS IN ADVANCE!!